Real

I feel the need to be as real as possible in a world that craves genuine, authentic, and orginal. I know people just want to be who they really truly are but for whatever reason they feel like they cannot be. Maybe it is a problem that stems from a young age. Maybe it is because they are do not want others to judge them for being who they truly are. Then there is the way the powers that be think we should see things. I feel like if you chose not to see things as the "establishment" wants us to, that is when you are dismissed as crazy. Maybe I am too real for some. Dont get me wrong I know when to hold my tongue. It is the look on my face and I really do not have much control over it. That look when you think to yourself, is this even real life right now?

Have you ever woken up one morning and felt like you were trapped in a fog? Like you’re still dreaming looking at everything through shades of gray. It’s like being somehow detached for everyone and everything around you and you’re waiting to start to feel again. Even your body feels funny. Heavy almost. I was walking around like that today, it was almost like being a different person. Usually this feeling sends me into a panic or as close to one as I can get trapped there like that but today I embraced it. It was interesting seeing everyone as they really are for the first time.