Today

Today I decieded to try a new approach to my day. I decided to go back to where I noticed the gift. Maybe not noticed but really began to realize what was happening. The classroom. I sit here in the classroom and type. I had the feeling again and today I noticed a pattern and I hope it continues. As I was leaving my parents house I began to get a bit emotional. I thought no I am not. I do not want to even be sad for one second today, I am in a good/productive mood. I have to be in order to complete goals I set for the day. I then received the secure feeling I have received on several occasions. The past few times it has happened just like it did today. A sudden wave of sadness immediately accompanied by a feeling of warmth and closeness. I interpret that as a sense of security. I think when I started to experience the feeling, I considered it intuition. I think that is part of it but I also think has a lot to do with things lining up exactly as they should. In order for that to happen, I had to become open to it. I feel like that was the hard part. Stepping away from all things. Getting to know me. Trusting myself and finding the same balance with a select few others. Believing in myself was huge as well. I am not where I know I need to be, but I get closer and closer daily. I am realizing a better schedule as far as rest, eating healthy, you know all that stuff.........does help. I am working on it.

Today is not so much #FFFFF0 as it is anxiety.

An hour ago I woke up to All That She Wants, which was immediately followed by Sweet Dreams. Either Ace of Base or Eurythmics would have been fine, but I got both today!